Lock down & Mental Health

Hi this is Ananya working in an MNC. I love reading articles on mental health and how to deal with it. Many of my friends ping me to ask suggestions for their problems. I have been suggesting and guiding them ever since my college days. At times I think I should pursue my career as a shrink. There are so many people who are depressed, have anxiety problems, have many things which they want to share but can’t because they don’t find the right person. I could be there secret keeper, a listener, an advisor and a guiding angel.

In the present lockdown situation, I have been reading many articles on mental health issues. The Government had also set up a call center so that one can connect if they are dealing with the depression. 

 

I got a call from my old friend who was going through the same. Let me brief you about her. She loved to meet people, make new friends, go on trekking, movies etc. in short, a complete happy go lucky person who was always surrounded by people and had never been alone. She told me how she was feeling lonely and couldn’t stay alone far from the paparazzi world. I told her that she was always lonely and running away from the reality of her life.

 

This lockdown is just a reality check on life for all those who are lost in the reel world. I gave her few exercises which she always loved and that was to pen down her inner voice. As suggested, she took 2hrs to write down with my few conditions, i.e. to be blunt enough to write anything and everything with no scribbling on the page. She had sent me 4 pages long paragraphs explained in detail what was bothering her and what she actually wanted. I asked her how many times did she genuinely tried to work out or gave in efforts express herself. And she didn’t had any answer. The very next moment she started taking few steps like baby steps you can say to deal with it. She was feeling positive and good. With this I gave her the mantra to be happy ie watching stand-up comedy, listening to music, eating healthy, pursue some passion or hobby.  

 

I asked her for my fees and that was nothing but box of chocolates. And also asked her to have one. As chocolates have that chemical which releases happy chemicals into your brain and which lifts up your mood.  

(to be honest you can write an email to me if you need any kind of help. Promise to keep it a secret.)

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A Drive To New Beginning

Hi this is Anisha, I met this guy named Deep at a family gathering at cousin’s place. He was my cousin's best friend. The party was in the month of march and he had come there for group studies and was about to leave. But my uncle insisted him to have dinner and then move which he readily accepted. He was very jovial in nature. It hardly took any time for us to become friends. He was a nice guy with fun and loving nature who entertained us with his jokes and talks. We exchanged our numbers.

One day I had uploaded WhatsApp story with some sad songs and sad quotes, which I generally did to express my emotions. Like every teenager, I had also changed the status privacy and made sure all my relatives are mentioned while selecting "MY CONTACTS EXPECT". He saw my status and he pinged me on WhatsApp asking if everything is fine. I tried to cover up with a lame excuse, that I had uploaded it "just like that". He was a smart-ass and he knew I had hidden it from all my relatives and my brother too. So, he kept on sending me appropriate reply to all my sad songs and those heartbreak shayaris. We started chatting on various casual topics like life, relationships, studies and future goals. We decided to meet at a McDonald's one evening. It was a casual meet. I insisted him not tell my brother as I didn’t want families to get involved as my brother is a complete mama’s boy, and he shares everything with her and she being a typical Indian woman loves gossiping. I didn’t want to be there hot topic.

We started sharing everything including our darkest secrets of relationships. He was single and had a past, I was into a toxic relationship. Everything in my relationship was going out of control. I had been cheated many times but I still kept on giving him more opportunities to hurt me all over again.I didn’t have that inner strength to take the decision of breaking up with him. I blamed myself for my failed relationship. I kept meeting Deep and spent time with him. Obviously I didn’t tell my boyfriend, as he'd never let me have friends in my life. Finally the day came when I called my boyfriend and told him it's over and made peace within myself.

Once we went on a drive at Worli sea face while it rained. We clicked pics together for the first time, went for a small walk and in that moment I felt nonchalant and lovely. I finally smiled again and he just stared at me. While driving back home he asked me to open my hair. He said it looked beautiful that way. I so wanted to hug him at that moment and tell him that I liked him but we didn’t spoke single word about it. We wished, we could live in this moment forever. We came back home and that night we were chatting on casual topics and the best part about it was he was being very caring during the entire time which we had spent. In that moment, I felt loved after years. I told him not to care for me so much or I’ll fall for you. To which he replied that do I still need time to fall for him because he had already fallen for me. It was like we both had found the perfect partner in each other.



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the truth untold

My heart's too bruised,
But you're too hard too quit,
You're so beautiful,
When you bite that lip,
I see in you, what no one can,
When i see you, that ecstasy,
When I'm in your arms,
You make me believe,
The world's foul, it's too harsh,
My life ain't a burnt out star,
You make me believe,
I can do more than a restart,
I can put all of my heart,
Into you again,
I feel so happy, in the opulence,
You take me by surprise,
When i see your confidence,
It lifts me up,
When we fuck, when we walk,
I'm all content,
You're no empty vase,
No empty lover,
Unless we have each other,
You put me high, high as a kite,
You make wanna fly the sky,
And take a bite,
From the moon, to give you that,
Because everything,
Baby everything with you feels so right.
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Where are you now?

Without saying a word,
just by being in it,
You light my world brighter,
than the stars,
All day I hear people
talking out loud,
But when you are near,
you drown out the croud,
Where are you now,
where are you now,
where are you now,
Oo where are you now,
Ain't no sunshine
now that you're gone,
Why does everything
here feels so wrong,
And here I think
of our souvenirs,
Oh baby now watch me
drowning in tears.
Where are you now,
where are you now,
where are you now,
Oo where are you now.
Don't leave me alone,
Baby I'm breaking,
Yet I won't mourn,
Even tho the heart's aching.
Where are you now,
Oh baby where are you now.
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9h

We're the Generation that fucked Everything Up

We live in a world where, we spend more on war than peace, we meet more people online than in real life, we prefer texts more than calls or real meets, where break-up is the new fleek, and love is a menace. So if a child asks me today, I'd say we truly live in a fucked up generation. Where Instagram or Facebook likes matter more than people who really like us, where so many of us are writers who'll never get a chance to show their skills because their degree matters more than their words. Where loving someone is peccant and hurting someone is the new kudos. So dear next generation, when you sit in a cafe with an empty cup in front of you or a hot coffee gone cold, don't let anyone tell you that you can't see art in it. Bring back the old school love where there is some-buddy for you instead of fuck-buddy, call-buddy or no-buddy. Someone who could level you with their love, someone who would love to see your notes where you're an artist instead of your likes and feed. We already pass on our open mindsets and progression to you but don't let anyone tell you you're not worthy. Don't let anyone tell you that depression is the new trend and anxiety can easily be gotten over. We wish you aren't a fucked up generation in the fucked up world where even the planet won't be habitable for you. Because we will, and shall take care of this world and you.
Sincerely, your previous generation.
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Cleanin' Out My Closet

You said you love me, all's good everything is great,
But be honest to me, you didn't want me in your fate,
Confronting to me you didn't wanted a kid like me,
But when world ask you, there is no flaw in me,
You stand up for others kids more than your own,
Having me has is a disgrace, bitch that I know,
We scream we shout, how she left me behind for you,
But when the world asks, you say he's our kid too,
Now that I know the intentions of the bitch like you,
I'll let the world know, you ain't in my life too,
But you won't let me do that, now would you,
Let the world know back then you couldn't have a kid for dad too,
I'm sorry for you the truth has been hurting a lot,
But not that sorry, because you left me to rot,
Without the world knowing my condition you can fool them,
How would you justify the crimes you did with me back then,
And don't tell I didn't tried to make it up to you,
But you never even wanted a man like me beside you,
So don't worry Momma I'm not dissing you for what you did,
You'll just hear this, you'll realise those words aren't meant for a kid,
You said grandpa was the one to fill my head with this news,
But all I needed to realise this was your action and some booze,
You say you never meant to hit that plate on my head,
But guess what, it wasn't why I didn't do those dishes crackhead,
Should've known your hate before I hit those crucial years,
So that I could cope up, and not waste my time on those tears,
But now I'm done, the bullies, the lies, the hatred,
Gonna show the world now, how you thought I was always wasted,
Tell this world you made me think I was sick how,
Made me look bad and yourself pretentious now,
And I'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you,
I never meant to make you cry, but tonight,
I'm cleanin' out my closet.


PS: Inspired by Eminem's Cleanin' Out My Closet.❤️



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The Burnt Desire

The day of reckoning was the beast of it's own. It creeped up on me, the unawares, it arrived on a whim, with high heads, and burnt everything down to ashes. The complains, the remonstrance, all flowed away in the stream of love. Her name, filled the void in my heart. The madness in her name, had it's own elegance and the madness in me, brought me closer to her. I see her from a distance, the charm she still had, I walked towards her, like it was the first time I had seen her. My obsession was at your mercy and it was about to change my destiny. The desires were burning and the wishes buried in my heart were stifling as I scratched the threshold of this madness.

It hurt me and I poured it out. By writing poetry I saw, there were more than a million ways I had seen your beauty. So pure and so soulful. And now that I know where my heart belongs, I can fight the world for it. Your love itself is a reward, nobody wins, nobody loses. And now that the day is here, I can free myself from you, either by the inevitable death, or love. But you, you'll always be caged in my writings for you have fallen in love with a writer my love. So let's go back in time, to the time unknown, where we were free, before we ever stumbled upon this day. Because this is the day, an artisan bloomed into an artist. This is the day when this writer's throbbing life came to a complete stand still. So if my life is destined to ruin, I accept. If this is how it ends, I accept. If you not loving me back is a rude awakening, I accept. Because my love, is a strange beast. Whip it, starve it, push it deep down in my insides, but you can't pull it out of me.



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Old Fashioned

I am old fashioned,
Wanna see the compassion,
Of you, of your body loving mine,
Of you, of your heart,
Beating with mine.
My body dances on the,
Beat of your heart,
Not at all gloomy, but gay,
Oh my sweetheart,
Are our together days.
That’s just the way I like it,
In the old fashioned way.

PS: It's a jazz song I wrote a long time back and also, this is one of my favourite movie still.❤️



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