Failure by Choice?

Hi everyone this is Arohi from some corner of the world who is struggling to pass. Yes, you heard me right, another soul who's struggling to pass with good marks in academics. So let us begin with the story of my failure which wasn't by choice.

I am a CA student. I have cleared intermediate after giving 8 attempts and I'm still struggling to get through to the finals. Last year I got married as I believed my degree is being delayed but my social life my other part of life should not be delayed. Yes! I can smile, celebrate, and live my life rather than being depressed with the results. The CA degree shouldn’t have the right to take away my happiness with it's failure. I didn’t keep myself behind the closed door, far from the world, and moved on in life.

I met my life partner who was very supportive and wanted me to continue. I felt lucky, and yes he is perfect for me who values my existence and didn’t wanted to rule my life by caging this wanderlust bird. It was my 1st attempt after marriage and I gave my 100% and studied day and night, giving in more efforts. Being married made me face a few obstacles too like slap in the face from my marital life. I knew that’s an important part of life, and I can not neglect it and only stay focused on career and studies.

Results got declared and I had failed. The result of failure made me the culprit, to put everyone to shame. No one was bothered to console me and to get me out of the depression of failure. They thought it was my choice to fail. I was happy being a failure. But that wasn’t the case, failure doesn’t give happiness, it breaks your inner strength, and your self-confidence. All my hopes and dreams broke like a glass and before I could even pick up the scattered pieces of the glass, another result got declared and I failed yet again. They proved me and kept on telling me that I am not an idle person or daughter-in-law for them and they aren’t happy that I got married to their son. 

Today I'm preparing myself for the examinations again. 

Failure is not a choice but a fate. Be the strength of a person and let them speak their heart out. I am not where I wanted to be but I am proud of where I am today because I was not here yesterday. Don’t let failure ruin you, learn from it and fight back to defeat your failure. 

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